Gregory Sare Landolt (gregoid) wrote,
Gregory Sare Landolt

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Calming Drive?

Goin' for a drive. I'm restless tonight, more than usual. I'm just going to jump in my truck and drive. It won't be one of my "I gotta run away" drives. I just need to clear my thoughts. Driving always has a calming effect on me.

I'll head up the 14 to Palmdale. I'm planning on stopping at Krispy Kreme while I'm up there. After I get my do'nuts, I have no idea where I'll go. There is a gay bar in Lancaster called "The Back Door," but I'm not sure I want to go there. I don't feel like loud music tonight and my new medication is very strict saying NO ALCOHOL. I'll still drive by and see if there is anyone hanging around outside.

Whoa, whoa. I'm staying away from there completely. I can already tell I will pick up anyone that shows interest and that is NOT what I need tonight. I need to clear my head thoughts, not have sex.

hmmm, looks like the increased sexual drive side effect of this medication is not a temporary thing. I need to get a handle on this then before it gets away from me. As long as I don't go really manic, I should be able to control I'm not sure if I can handle this at all. This is something I have never had to deal with before. This is virgin territory for me, so to speak.

Even as a teenager, I didn't have a sexual appetite like this. I have gone 4-6 years in between each encounter I have had. This would be very awkward if I am just now reaching my peak, sexually. OMG what a thought! I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing.

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