This year has been anything but a smooth ride for me. I wanted to post more but most of the time I just wasn't "in the mood" to sit and type. The same thing went for chatting. I did read entries but I just couldn't stand typing a comment most of the time, even if I had a response that I wanted to make. It seemed that anything that involved interaction was the last thing that I wanted to do. I didn't shut myself completely off from the world but I didn't make the effort on my end to try.
Now today I am "in the mood" to reach out again. I don't know what changed if anything or why, but I'm not going to analyze it too much. I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't going to analyze it at all. Hopefully I won't
I have been spending a lot of time reading. Actual books! I know! Pretty shocking. Before, I would only read books that I was assigned to read or technical/reference manuals. Reading for pleasure or just for the heck of it was not something that interested me at all...until recently. Again, I don't know what changed. I think it might have to do with reality becoming too much sometimes to handle and reading allowed me to escape to another place if only for a few hours.
I used to escape from reality or at least escape from MY problems for a while by helping others with their problems. I could focus on their issues and in the process my issues would be placed on the back burner out of the way. I don't seem to have anyone lately who needs help enough to suppress my issues, so I'm guessing that I've taking up reading to allow that escape once more. At least for a little while.
In any case, I've been doing a lot of reading and I am actually enjoying the experience A LOT! Go figure. :)