April 23rd, 2003

WebCam Greg

The eye of the storm

How is it possible to be so happy when I'm talking to someone I love and at the same time be depressed to the point that I feel like all the muscles in my face have dropped like getting a shot of Novocain? I'm happy and depressed. Not manic, but happy.

Daniel is the greatest thing in my life. I have a few Awesome friends that have helped me out a lot, but Daniel seems to be able to cut through so many layers of my depression and embed himself in me. He is able to give me a channel through the depression so I can communicate with him. He give me a Warm happy bubble in which I can enjoy while my depression surrounds me. I can feel both, but I am able to escape the emptiness that usually consumes me.

Daniel, I truly love you with all of my heart and soul. You have become a part of me. A part that I cherish.
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WebCam Greg

Napping away depression

I had a nap on the couch while Lucila (cleaning lady) was here cleaning. I woke up for a second when she started vacuuming, but fell right back to sleep. I woke up feeling much better and I almost feel back to "normal." I don't feel any residual depression lurking in the background, so this might be the end of this for a while.

I guess the medication is helping a lot. I was only feeling crappy for a few days.

*All smiles*

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    okay okay