Gregory Sare Landolt (gregoid) wrote,
Gregory Sare Landolt

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Tears of Joy

I just spent a good portion of the early afternoon crying tears of joy over an email I received from tomcan, whom I consider a friend. I couldn't believe the wave of emotions that poured out of me as I tried, through teary eyes, to read this wonderful email.

Last night, I stayed up to 5:00 AM writing what had started out to be a journal entry, but ended up becoming much, much more. I started out describing what obstacles that I had to over come to get where I am today. After more than two full 8.5" x 11", single-spaced pages later, I decided it had become too big and too involved to actually post. I had finally achieved what I had tried countless times before, to document the toughest part of my life.

It's not easy to see your life's hurtful moments, displayed in front of you. It is even harder to write about all that pain. I have decided to just use that document as a reference and post from it from time to time.

I believe that I have reached another level of understanding and acceptance of myself. This is a major milestone for me. I am so proud to have finally reached this point in my life. I have tried to write this document for over six years, but wasn't able to complete more than a few sentences. In all previous attempts, I just deleted what I had written up to that point, and in the process of writing, became extremely depressed.

Life can be good when you feel great inside. Life is good!
Tags: acceptance, e-mail, milestone

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