depressedAfter chatting with Daniel, I ended up eating some hot dogs for lunch and then veged out on the couch. I ended up watching Black Hawk Down. This was the first time that I've seen it. I enjoyed it.
I wasn't able to babysit today. I just couldn't do it. I seem to be teetering on the edge of a complete shutdown. For the last two days, I have been ignoring the feelings and fighting to keep in a happy mood. Twice the depression has slipped through and left me in tears.
Not only was I not able to babysit, I wasn't even able to take a shower or even just get dressed. I'm really glad that I'm on medication.
The cleaning lady comes tomorrow at 11 AM, so I will need to clear off my computer table between now and then. Something tells me that I'll be doing it at 10:30 tomorrow morning.
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