So I woke up disoriented and now I just feel down. I feel like crying, but not enough to actually see tears. I'm not sure if I'm worried, disappointed, sad, or what. I just know that I am.
I don't feel like doing any self discovery to find out what has me feeling like this. I just feel like sitting here and not really doing much of anything.
Update: I'm getting flashes of bits of dreams that I had last night and there is a common theme. I'm an outsider again. I'm present, but not part of the crowd. I am just watching things take place, but I'm not an active participant. This is how I grew up. I wansn't happy then either. I had the same feeling of just wanting to sit and not do much then as well.
I still don't know why I'm feeling this way, but I know that I can handle feeling like this. I mean, I did it until I was 23, so I know I can handle it now.